So today I guess will just be a chill day. I want to hit thee gym, and the club at night. Something tells me i wont do either.

I HATE not being able to do what i want.... I thought once i got out of highschool that i wuld surely have a say.... Nope still dont. So thats where thee need for a car is, once i am lisenced up and mobile.... I will be gone! I dont even want to go anywhere bad, or do anything bad. I just want to do places when i feel like going! Haha.

Anywho.... Juan stopped textn me point blankly last night.... That fuckn annoyed me because i hate being shuned by guys. I hate feeling inferior and disposable, not mattter how many times i say im gunna change it up this time. I dont. I end up in thee same perdictament. I think its cause of my incapability to not give in, my heart easily weakens for affection and i am perpetually draw into that person before i know it.

This shit is saddening me. Im going to get up from bed and eat some cereal.