So as I vigourously trying to figure out which college to go to and it is soo annoying. I am so annoyed. Uqh. Cant even write because im that mad right now.


Thee daily stuff isnt really stressed until you take thee time to really think about all the decisions you make everyday... big and small. Our lives arent as big and glorious and people make living out to be. Thee only things that truly have some worth in this life are family friends and self worth. "The best things in life are free" and im a firm believer of such. As I grow older all these things become alot more evident. Even in my youth I can come to realize that I wasted so much time worrying about people and things that really had to worth or importance to my being.

 Im definetely growing and it sure is a daily struggle to stay above the influenece and to keep my head up. I have alot of doubts about my growth however because people still see me as my old childish immature me who was a bit to advanced for her  age. Its sad that I finally realized that its best to have a good clean reputation but back in thee day I was only worried about having guys like me and being thee envy of every girl in school. Childish? sure... but it is definetely a want for many young girls that start highschool. I can never take back what I have done... nor do I want to because those things have helped me grow and become who I am today. I will however strive to be a better, mature me regardless of how people percieve me I will know deep down that I am complete and happy in my own skin.

Its a new time for me. New year. New goals, wants and dreams.